Standing in the dinghy looking at my (James’) frozen hands, trying to will them to work! …my hands wouldn’t work and I could feel the rest of me shutting down, starting with my version of reality, and hypothermia was, of course, the last thing on my mind. I somehow managed to get out of the little boat and back aboard Nomad in a completely blacked out state, where I, what(!), came to, when I could feel my hands again holding the warm vent-output of the heater. I told her through hyperventilated breaths that this is a change in my life happening in realtime. We talked, we hugged. When I (Dena) cried, he took it like a gift, like something better than forgiveness. Togetherness is better than forgiveness. We weren’t okay. We were faltering from the poison of South Carolina’s 3rd-world water and the poison of the mold drip dripping on our heads as we slept and the sapping weakness of night after night of temperatures under 25 degrees Fahrenheit and days underway at 26. Both of us, weakened, taxed beyond coping, beyond just-get-through-this, turned to each other and said, enough. This is the change. Southing ain’t it… We sailed south to Latitude 18 on the Big Island and South wasn’t the answer then and it isn’t now. The change is: a new boat, or rather, another boat, yeah… Sailing North out of Chuck-ton just to get (the fuck) out of that trap, that trump-confederate stronghold, that town, and then we ran aground, ugh…in the marina, a marina (!!!), wow, I have no idea where-the-fuck-I-was, oh yeah Isle of Palms, S.C., right, powered a trench in the sandy bottom, then we epic-walked to pizza… We did a short offshore from Isle of Palms to the North Edisto River because we didn’t[…]
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